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OK. so I'm kind of down. and this is manifesting itself in me eating a lot of junk and kind of an annoying migraine in the back of my head.

I just don't feel like I'm getting it. I feel talked down to (by physical therapist). We had a whole half hour of physical therapy and all we did was the same exercise from before and one new one. I'm just not very optomistic about this whole thing and I feel like I need to be, should be! in order to get what I need to out of this program.

But right now my head hurts. All I want to do is sleep. well. burrow into the covers and sleep. and eat. That is not very promising.

Please somewhere, something inside me turn around this/my feelings otherwise I think it will be a waste of time.

I got a car. BUt like. please. The car door won't open with the regular key. I have to open the passenger side and crawl over. The light doesn't turn on. It's kind of a piece of shittiness. But it's a car, and other than not knowing where I'm going and kind of just 'going there' I really like having a car. even if all I ever do (did today) was go back and forth to the clinic.

And really, today, I was going to go take a dance class after but I was feeling down about this program about myself and I just wanted to eat (at first I thought it was just being down, but then I realized it was migraine-ness). and so I went 'home.' Which - as of tomorrow I will be sharing again with the owner. Boo. It's nice to have a whole place to myself. Not that he's not nice - - just that he talks - wants to talk... I guess and I want to feel shitty and wallow in it I guess. Ok. This post must stop. you see the problem? yeeeesss.

Naomi